Choose Happy
When things go wrong people tend to focus on, well, the wrong. People always asked me about how I stayed so positive through my illness - through all that I was going through. Yes, things were rough. Here I was with a feeding tube in my nose, connected to a machine 24/7. I was seeing more doctors than I had ever seen before. I was being pricked and prodded, like some science experiment. The worst part was for so much of this time, I went misdiagnosed. It wasn't easy. It took us 6 months to discover my SMAS and 3 months after that to fix it. AND then after all that, four months later, we discovered that something bad happened internally and I had to have major abdominal surgery to fix it. We discovered that if I didn't have that surgery, I may not have survived. My year was definitely not something I wished for - but in all the awful, the only thing that kept me going was the good. The fact that I was alive. The fact that I was able to speak and laugh and smile. The good is w