Livin like LewLew

Recovery sucks. It's painfully slow and feels like it's never going to end. But it will. It seems like every time I make progress, there seems to be some new problem that pops up. Like even yesterday: I got my epidural out (which has been numbing my pain since surgery) and I've been handing it pretty well! I'm definitely sore and I feel dull pains all through my insides but I've been able to fight through that. I can handle a little pain here and there. But then when i thought THAT was the worst of it, I began violently throwing up bile - for what seemed like hours. Thankfully, I have a GJ tube that allows me to drain my stomach so I don't have to throw it all up, but it isn't fun. This morning alone I've drained 1500 mLs (1.5 Liters) of bile. That's a whole lot of bile - & it isn't even supposed to be going into my stomach!!! And then my IVs. Oh boy. Those things suck. And for whatever reason my body just can't seem to keep them. You

Today I got to spend some time with these two girls, Sam and Allie. It was kind of crazy talking with both of them because we've all endured such similar things. Sam and Allie both had recent surgeries for SMAS and MALS. And while both of them are in recovery, they know exactly what I am going through right now. Surgery is tomorrow and I am scared. Scared about recovery, the pain I will feel, and most importantly the surgery itself. There is always the risk for complications, and while I have COMPLETE faith in Dr. Petty and his team, I am still a little nervous. I mean, not only are they cutting into my stomach, but they're going to be working around an artery. They're going to be separating the nerves that are wrapped around my celiac artery, as well as releasing the median arcuate ligament that is compressing it. I'm nervous. Nerves are so sensitive and I'm afraid that by messing with them/detaching them from the artery, it's going create overwhelming pain